September 29, 2013—the day that changed the game forever. One year ago today, I was able to breathe a little easier, walk a little lighter, and express who I truly am.
This was the day that I officially came out to my family.
I would have never guessed in a million years that I’d be where I am today. And I’ve gotta say, I’m truly enjoying the view from here! Being a lesbian isn’t what I am, it’s who I am. And although being gay isn’t solely who I am, coming out was a major milestone for me. I never thought I’d be able to say that this is part of my story. And as I write this, I can’t help but have the hugest smile on my face. :D
Grateful is the only word that I can think of that can describe how I will forever feel towards the people I have in my life. Regardless of a few of their “issues” with my sexual orientation, all of them still love me unconditionally. Tolerance may be the best that I’ll ever get for some, but acceptance is what I have received from the mass! And that’s something worth celebrating.
This was a year of me growing, whether it be my relations with beautiful (and triflin’) women or getting a better understanding of who I am on this “spectrum.” I’d take all the moments of misery I experienced in this past year OVER what I felt prior to 09/29/2013… So you could definitely say that coming out truly was the best thing I could of ever done! And I could never express how thankful I am for the people in my life.
Happy 1 Year Baby Dyke-a-Versary to me!!!
P.S. For those of you who are still in that closet: I actually wrote you a letter a few months ago here. But I just want you to know that I know it hurts right now. That burden you’re carrying around only gets heavier with time. There’s never the “perfect moment” to do it. You’ve just gotta do it (unless you know that they won’t take it well—in that case, all I can say is that I’m so sorry). I’m here for you if you need me!
And with that being said, I don’t think anyone outside of my close friends and immediate family has actually read/heard my infamous “Coming Out” poem… So here it is! Enjoy!
Closet;
I’ve never really felt “different” so to speak
I was just always Kiara
But once I found out that a certain part of me wasn’t well accepted,
That’s when I began to feel out of place
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I’ve been hiding who I truly am for so long
Not only from the people I love, but from myself as well
I tried to change who I was
Becoming someone I was not
All I could think to myself is that I could change if I tried hard enough
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But lately, I’ve been tired
Tired of trying so hard at something that is unattainable
Something that isn’t who I am
And although this part of me is something that I’ve been trying to alter,
It still doesn’t define who I am
I’m more than just a label
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I’m a human being who wants to fall madly in love
A human being who has their quirks, but still sees the beauty in life
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I might not know exactly who I am or where I’m going,
But I do know one thing…
I’m happy
